Monday, December 20, 2010


It was another morning just like any other he had known.
Typical workday, up early rush around to get ready, take a few minutes to check emails.
Looking for that special one from his baby. Smiles as he finds it, his inspiration for the day.
Scrambles to finish breakfast, jump in the car and make the trek into work. Fights the traffic,
deals with the idiots of the roads and makes it to his office. peace, tranquility, he loves those first
moments of the day when nothing is happening....Yet.

He answers her emails. A daily ritual that he loves doing. Tells her everything will be so fine and they
just have to wait for that time when all their dreams can become realized. She tells him of her empty
nights of missing him, both hearts longing for the day when all of this loneliness will go away.
He assures her that his heart is hers completely.

The madness begins, something she said lingers in his mind, but there is much to do and people to care for.
He becomes lost in his work, trying to make sense of what he does. The reality of making the salary, to survive, to make ends meet, surely not what he'd like to be doing, but realizes it could be a lot worse.
Deals with deadlines, answers questions, guides the lost ones, this really isn't so bad, he convinces himself.

Lunchtime arrives finally. about to make a dash out the door to spend some time outdoors. to take in some fresh air, talk with some friends. Rant about everything that is wrong with the work, the usual.
Just before he leaves, a call comes. It is from the front desk informing him that he has a visitor. Slightly annoyed,
he asks who and says that he was just going to lunch you see. He is told she doesn't know who. He tells her he will be down.

He walks downstairs to the second floor reception area. He stares at the receptionist who points to the waiting room.
He looks toward the seating area and his heart jumps into his mouth, his knees become jelly. He does a double-take. He's completely flabbergasted. It is her! His own true love. After the initial look of surprise, his eyes soften and he rushes to her hoping his legs will carry him. Completely oblivious to anyone around him, he locks gaze with her eyes and takes her into his arms, kissing her softly at first, lingering, then madly, clinging to her close.
People around looking shocked at first, then smiles and affirmations. After what seems like eternity, he looks to her again almost speechless. How is this possible, how did you get here, all the questions of uncertainty rush to him, then he quickly dismisses them and meets her lips once again in a deep passionate blissful kiss.....
The thing that had been sticking in his mind all day up to then was her line in the email: I'll see you soon....when all times before it was always I wish I could be with you, if only we could be in each other's arms....I'll see you soon in your dreams...these were  recurring themes...

To be continued... is copyrighted © and may not be used without permission from the creator

Wednesday, December 8, 2010


I took a seminar recently and wanted to share with you some things I learned that make good sense.
I don't know where this comes from or even who wrote some of these ideas so I can't give some credit to whoever it was. So, anyways here goes.

Habit one: Be proactive
You life doesn't just happen. Whether or not you know it, you carefully design it. The choices we make are
our own. Energy follows thought. You have heard me say this before. So with that in mind, you can choose
happiness, you can choose sadness, decisiveness, ambivalence, success, failure, courage, or fear. Every moment, every situation, provides a new choice, and in doing so, it gives you a perfect opportunity to do things differently, thus you can produce positive results.

Be proactive about taking responsibility for your life. We can't keep blaming our parents or grandparents for everything that is wrong in our lives. Proactive people recognize that they are response-able. They don't blame genetics, circumstances, conditions, or conditioning for their behavior. They know they choose their behavior. Reactive people people, on the other hand, are often affected by their physical environment. They find external sources to blame for their behavior. If the weather is good, they feel good. If it isn't, it affects their attitude and performance, and they, of course, blame the weather. All of these external forces act as stimuli that we respond to. Between the stimulus and the response lies our greatest power. We have the power to choose our response. One of the most important things we choose is what we say. Our language is a good indicator of how we see ourselves. A proactive person uses proactive language~I can, I will, I prefer, etc. A reactive person will use reactive language-~I can't, I have to, if only. Reactive people believe they are not responsible for what they say and do-~they have no choice.

Instead of reacting to or worrying about conditions over which they have little or no control, proactive people focus their time and energy on things they can control. The problems, challenges, and opportunities we face fall into two areas-~Circle of Concern and Circle of influence.

Proactive people focus their efforts on Circle of Influence. They work on the things they can do something about: health, problems at work, children. Reactive folks focus on the Circle of Concern-~things over which they have little or no control over: the national debt, terrorism, the weather. Gaining awareness of the areas in which we expend our energies in is a giant step in becoming proactive.

More to follow....

Wednesday, December 1, 2010


I was soaring so high

bound to hit something

should have seen it coming

I disappointed, I made sad

all I wanted was to feel secure

long distance gaps, feeling the strain

needing the touch, the sight, her fragrance

should have just gone with the flow, why did it go astray

inner workings short circuited again

bring back the moment, instant replay, rewind, do over

truth is I knew all along there was no problem

why spill out the fear why question that which is secure

didn't mean any harm, no need for alarm

when will the last ounce of doubt be removed from my head

heart failed me again

or was it just skip a bit when it should have jumped

forgiven for sure, disappointed yes

move back up into our bliss is copyrighted © and may not be used without permission from the creator

Wednesday, November 24, 2010


Take her at face value lest ye gamble with her heart

One so different and so real you knew it from the start

She has shown you how to love for real with dignity and respect

And taken your heart into hers forever what more could you expect

It's too easy to second guess when your life has been a mess

Some of us let the real thing get away without even taking a guess

While others ponder the significance of true love, never experiencing the bliss

Wandering aimlessly cut off from their heart heading for a near miss

While I use to be one of them, today I pity they that can't see their fire

After time all doubt washed away we are left with true devotion

A feeling of blessed awakening erupts into all emotion

I surrender willingly knowing there can be no other

Who amongst them could ever doubt this is my one true lover

How do I repay this incredible heart for showing me the meaning of life

I guard her heart back with my life and treat her with utmost respect

For you see for me there has never been anyone close that I've ever met

Who could ever hold a candle to her love devotion and fire

A gift so bold and precious given with so much desire

Deserves to be pampered admired and honored each day that we live

This I ask for in return for I have nothing more to give.

Tuesday, November 16, 2010


I woke up with love in my heart and a song playing in my head

The sky was cloudy, but my heart was filled with sunshine

It felt so good to not have those blues that make you stay in bed

She looked up to me, smiled and said: "baby, I'm so glad your mine"

I smiled boldly back, planning my attack, moved slowly into her arms

She said: "not so fast lover, don't try to blow my cover, and I'm not falling for your charms"

I wailed back: "wait a minute darling, I'm the one who's falling", as I led her into a dance

She twirled around twice batted her baby blues, leading me into a trance

Who could resist? she encased me in her bliss, as my knees became weak

She lead me in seduction, it felt like an abduction, then smiled back "oh lover your in for a treat"

How could I resist, as she lead me into the mist, our cooing could be heard all down the street is copyrighted © and may not be used without permission from the creator
Illustration courtesy of Lily Bradbury

Tuesday, November 2, 2010


I never knew what true love was until I met you

Sure we all have heard that it exists but until you experience it yourself

you have no clue. My love brings to me such precious moments I cannot express how

it makes me feel. I will try. Whenever we are together, we constantly speak or think the

same thought almost simultaneously. It blows me away sometimes how in tune we are to each others

thoughts. It's as if we are both one mind, two people as one mind, soul, love working in complete

harmony. In most relationships, things usually progress to a certain plane then level off or become

stagnant. In ours, things just keep growing stronger and deeper, the bonds keep developing between us.

Is it perfect? No, we have been through some really tough threatening things that almost broke us apart.

Because of the incredible bond we have, we have been able to work past those differences and have

grown even stronger because of them. It takes work and dedication to keep things moving forward.

I know now that what we have was not started from a chance meeting. It as if there were outside guidance

or intervention. How else can you explain two people who were so far distanced from each other yet going

through almost identical experiences should come together forming this incredible bond?

As we move forward from this time on, we will not let our love be denied. We have put in years of wasted

time, and energy spent to get very little in return. We have lived empty lives, always feeling the compromise.

Opportunities to live the life as it was meant to be, don't come along that often and this one that we have

before us, only comes once in a lifetime. We will not be suppressed!

As our favorite muse songs says:

"They will not force us

They will stop degrading us

They will not control us

We will be victorious, so come on"

Hey Hey, Hey, Hey.... is copyrighted © and may not be used without permission from the creator

Wednesday, October 13, 2010


Celestial Awakening

lend me your heart

Transport me through the stars so bright

My senses on fire

my eyes beaming with desire

oh let it start

Cannot fight the surging impulse

no longer running from the light

Strapped into her arms of lust

longing for her to hold you near

Make-up sex is best, especially after a fight

she looks at you and smiles, satisfied with delight

You feel no remorse

happy to please her heart

Who can say what is wrong with two people so right

lest not ye judge

righteous one

For a man needs a hiding place away from the fire

I seek the warmth and comfort of your eternal desire is copyrighted © and may not be used without permission from the creator

Saturday, October 9, 2010


Have you ever almost lost someone so close to your heart that you felt your heart almost die.

Over something so meaningless that you wish you could have taken the whole night back.

This is what I allowed my ridiculous head do. The heart being cut off from the head again.

The mind does not know how to handle matters of the heart and this can be proven. Just ask your head how to handle a conflict with your girl friend and you'll see.

You know Led Zeppelin song "What is what should never be"

"catch the wind, see us spin,
Sail away, leave today,
Way up high in the sky.
But the wind won't blow,
You really shouldn't go,
It only goes to show
That you will be mine
By takin' our time. ooh!"

Yes as in love, taking your time will bring you to where you should be.
Same for doubt, fear, and trust. If you take your time to face those things and really feel them, you will find the answer. Don't listen to your head.

You do not want to be pointed at with someone saying "that guy has his head up his ass" and by the time he realizes it his love will have flown.

Heads are full of pride! I have on many occasion had to thank the good Lord for giving me a big enough throat to swallow my pride.

I happen to love the most wonderful woman in the world. She gives me everything a man could ever want and more. And she is sexy hot beyond belief. I would have to be the biggest fool on this earth to ever give her up.

The gift of her love and the devotion she has for me, make me the luckiest man alive.

"So if you wake up with the sunrise,
And all your dreams are still as new,
And happiness is what you need so bad,
Girl, the answer lies with you, yeah."

Thank you for making my life have meaning, and I will never forget how incredible you are for choosing me... is copyrighted © and may not be used without permission from the creator

Saturday, September 11, 2010


You are the one, you are my only drum

You make things real, you know how to have fun

When will we learn, the meaning of our love

You hold the key, to all our dreams above

Ah yes giving love all our best

Oh yeah, our love stands above the rest

Giving you my heart giving you my heart you knew it from the start

Passion lady roll me control me devour me steal my heart

Can't you see I'm yours for the taking can't believe how high your love making

Oh baby don't slow down don't you stop until the morning light is burning

Giving our souls raking our love grow a new dawn is turning

Captured by your smile lured into your hearts desire

Eternity awaits if we are ready to jump into the fire

Not yet not now we scream there is too much awaiting for us to be dreamed

Giving taking without thinking bringing us into this awakening

And for this gift we offer up for everyone to see there will be no mistake

Saturday, August 14, 2010


It has been a bit of an up and down journey over the past week.

Flirting with disaster one day then re-claiming the love I seek.

How do I thank you for showing me the way

Do you know how grateful I'am that you stayed.

Your heart is so linked to mine, how could I become so lost.

How could I ever risk losing you, knowing the cost.

If I ever become lost again, disconnected from my heart.

I shall remember how you hold my love high, as I've known from the start.

There are many things in this world so unsure and unfair.

You are my guiding light that keeps me from despair.

A beckoning gentle mermaid that has rescued my soul.

Cast all shadows of doubts aside, as the legends foretold.

The secrets of mermaids be told, they were there to rescue your love.

Give you salvation, hope, and renewed dreams while they hold you above.

I give you my heart, my soul, my life into your cherished hands.

Never again will I doubt you, as we journey together to make our stand. is copyrighted © and may not be used without permission from the creator

Saturday, July 31, 2010


Today I'd like to re-visit an great artist and a great album

Tom Petty and the Heartbreakers

Full Moon Fever

Tom is on tour again this summer and I've seen them in Phoenix and they never disappoint!

Usually when he performs here, Stevie Nicks will join him for a special appearance to do Stop Dragging My Heart Around and other songs. She has roots here so of course she will always try to appear with him here. I know she makes appearances in other towns too, but we are partial to her here.

First up: Free Fallin'

This song has old stomping ground memories for me. I used to hang out in all these places he sings about. Cruising Mulholland on my motorcycle, Ventura blvd. Yeah great times and places to be. Feel good song no matter where you are from.

Next: I Won't Back Down

You can stand me up at the gates of hell, well I'll stand my ground and keep this world from dragging me down and I won't back down. Such great lyrics about dealing with the struggles that life can throw at you. Tom does it best, co written by Jeff Lynne, with never mentioning anything specific leaving it up to the listener to form their own opinion. Brilliant!

Love is a Long Road by Tom Petty and Mike Campbell

This song has to grow on you. The more you listen it, the more it takes on different meanings and at different times in your life.

next: A Face In The Crowd written by Tom Petty and Jeff Lynne

A great love song with simplistic lyrics and a haunting melody drawing you in. The use of the repetitive acoustic guitar and percussion makes it easy to picture that face in the crowd.

Before all of this ever went down

In another place, another town,
You were just a face in the crowd
Out in the street walking around
A face in the crowd

Out of a dream, out of the sky
Into my heart, into my life

And you were just a face in the crowd
Out in the street, thinking out loud
A face in the crowd

Out of a dream, out of the sky
Into my heart, into my life

And you were just a face in the crowd
Out in the street, thinking out loud
A face in the crowd
A face in the crowd
A face in the crowd

Next: Running Down A Dream. This one by Tom Petty Jeff Lynne and Mike Campbell

Also the tittle of a documentary about Tom Petty and the Heartbreakers directed by Peter Bogdonovich 2007.

Everyone knows this song! A huge hit single. Great cruising music!

This was one of the first albums to be transferred to CD. Tom makes a joke between this song and You'll Feel A Whole lot Better.

Hello CD listeners, we've come to the point where those of you who have albums or tapes must turn them over. So we will take a moment to recognize them....ok here's side two.... or something pretty close to that.

A song Tom played with the Byrds. Written by Gene Clark and released in 1965 on the "B" side of All I Really Want To Do.

Yer So Bad by Tom Petty and Jeff Lynne

Great lyrics and a fun song so typical of southern California mindset!

Next: Depending on you by Tom Petty

baby if you can't change the world
maybe you should just change yourself
you used to be such a sweet young girl
why you wanna be someone else?

The Apartment Song

this version is with Stevie Nicks again. Listening to this I don't miss those days of apartment living!

Alright For Now by Tom Petty.

Just a sweet love song. Quite simple and beautifully done.

A Mind With A Heart Of It's Own by Tom Petty

Well I been to Brooker and I been to Micanopy

I been to St. Louis too I been all around the world

I've been over to your house

And you've been over sometimes to my house

I've slept in your tree house

My middle name is Earl

Last but not least: The Zombie Zoo by Tom Petty

All down the street they're standin' in line
with white lipstick and one thing on their mind
Hey little freak with the lunch pail purse
underneath the paint you're just a little girl

Dancin' at the Zombie Zoo, dancin' at the Zombie Zoo
Painted in a corner and all you wanna do
is dance down at the Zombie Zoo

Cute little dropout, how come you pack a rod
is your mother in a clinic? has your father got no job?
Sometimes you're so impulsive,
you shaved off all your hair
you look like Boris Karloff and you don't even care

You're dancin' at the Zombie Zoo
dancin' at the Zombie Zoo
painted in a corner and all you wanna do is dance down at the
Zombie Zoo

She disappears at sunrise, I wonder where
she goes until
the night comes fallin' down again she shows
up with her friends half-alive

You can make a big impression or
go through life unseen
you might wind up restricted and over seventeen
it's so hard to be careful, so easy to be led
Somewhere beyond the pavement
you'll find the living dead

Some say it is about a hooker or a stripper. You can make up your own mind about that. A girl living on the edge for sure!

Cute little dropout, how come you pack a rod
Is your mother in a clinic? has your father got no job?
Sometimes you're so impulsive,
You shaved off all your hair
You look like Boris Karloff and you don't even care

Out for money and protection seems like to me. She also seems scared in a cruel world she has been thrown into. copyrighted © and may not be used without permission from the creator.

Sunday, July 18, 2010


Perhaps one of the greatest rock albums of this century.
An incredible mix of Eric clapton, Steve Winwood, Ric Grech, and Ginger Baker,
The most unique sound from Clapton's lead guitar, Ginger's drumming is absolutely original, and Winwood's vocals and keyboards make this an awesome mix of talents.
Of course it couldn't last. This one incredible album stands alone and unsurpassed.
listen to track 01:

A hauntingly soulful blues tune that grabs you from the first line and clapton's guitar draws you into a mesmerizing trance almost.
builds up to an incredible climax that almost scrambles your brain.

Next is Cant Find My Way Home:

Great melody, lyrics and acoustic guitar work. A trip through the inner mind of religion, the hopelessness of realization of what drugs and being lost can do to your body and soul.

Well Alright:

A live and love tune about freedom, free love, and the new philosophy of the times. Innocence was pure and the belief that they would change the world to bring about a new Utopia.

Presence of the Lord follows:


Again a song about testimony of faith. Written by Eric Clapton and his first song that he wrote all the lyrics for.

Next was Sea Of Joy:

Perhaps the best song on the album, although I love all of them. Again it is mesmerizing, drawing you into that boat waiting to set sail with them. Steve Winwood song. Lyrics provided below:

Following the shadows of the skies,
Or are they only figments of my eyes?
And I'm feeling close to when the race is run.
Waiting in our boats to set sail.
Sea of joy.

Once the door swings open into space,
And I'm already waiting in disguise.
Is it just a thorn between my eyes?
Waiting in our boats to set sail.
Sea of joy.

Having trouble coming through,
Through this concrete blocks my view
And it's all because of you.

Oh, is it just a thorn between my eyes?
Waiting in our boats to set sail.
Sea of joy.

Sea of joy.
Sea of joy.
Sailing free.
Sea of joy

Last but not least was: Do What You Like

A Ginger Baker song of course, with an incredible drum solo. A lengthy song with not much to say, except to promote freedom of thought and living your life as your own. Thinking back, how many of us ever really get to do that. Maybe for a limited time they got to live their dreams. is copyrighted © and may not be used without permission from the creator

Wednesday, July 7, 2010

KAFKA'S SISTER: Metaphysics--The Queen of Sciences#links#links

I wanted to share a post with you today from a friend of mine.
She has touched on a philosophical way of looking at love that I really enjoyed reading today. I used to be a philosophy major in college back in the day.
The last one about the metaphysical way of looking at love I totally agree with.

KAFKA'S SISTER: Metaphysics--The Queen of Sciences#links#links is copyrighted © and may not be used without permission from the creator. and so is Kaftka's Sister.

Tuesday, June 29, 2010


The subject of responsibility has come up again.
In regards to the social media sites out there, I want to
focus on blipfm again. Just because irresponsibility seems to run
rampant there does not give everyone ca rte blanch to just do whatever
they feel like doing! Do not forget that at the control of that avatar and
name, albeit not likely real, there is a real person at the controls. A person
with real feelings, real dreams, real aspirations, real intentions, a real life that
does not include blip. Sure there are those who thrive on the player aspects and for
those who do, go for it, but when someone indicates to you that they are not interested, then do the right thing and just back off! There is no place for annoying someone with lies, deceit, tricks, or anything else you may think will
gain their attention. Believe me, it will almost always do the opposite and drive them away from you.
The other thing is when someone re-blips a song you blipped, don't take their name off of it and claim it for yourself. Do not take the name off of the person they blipped to so that you can claim it for yourself. I know sometimes the list is too long and you have to remove some people, but if there is only one person on the list and you remove them and replace them with yourself, do you really think that is going to impress the person who blipped it?

The other problem we are seeing more of is hackers staking out claims there. This is a music site for people who care about music! It is not an opportunity for stealing identities or passing viruses around or hacking into peoples youtube accounts, whatever!! Get a life!!!
Now I think that the administrators of blip should be doing a lot more to protect it's members, but having emailed them several times about other issues, I really don't think they could care less.
Most of us want to enjoy our blip addictions, but many are making it too hard to continue having a good time there. is copyrighted © and may not be used without permission from the creator

Saturday, June 19, 2010


In fairness to drummers I'm going to do the counter part to why guitarists are nuts too.
Number one:
They think what they play has to always be kick-ass, knock them on the ground kind of awesomeness!
In reality, I'm finding more subtle sounds to be more enduring. I have always been drawn to acoustical sounds as
being the window to our musical soul.

Number two:
If they write a song, they think if has to be their way or no way!
in practice, it's not a bad idea to re-hash, re-write, listen to new ideas, play off of others input.
Without input, and validation, how can you know if what you wrote is THAT good? Of course, sometimes
we just get lucky.

Number three:
They sometimes think that a lead solo that goes on for fourteen minutes is something everyone wants to hear!
Well if your stoned, that can sound great or if you just want to trip out with headphones, then yeah!!! We also have
Pink Floyd for that and hard to beat them. Maybe the realization that too long a solo just might take away from the song's intent and flow? A hard one to give up for sure!!

Number four:
The assumption that rhythm guitar is boring!
Let's face it, a lot of bands don't use them anymore, but they really are the glue that holds the theme of the song and all
the transitions, subtle and hard, flowing in continuity. Throwing in acoustical sequences between leads can really add new dimensions to a great song.

Number five:
Writers are NOT always right!
Other members of the band can write too, not just guitarists! A successful lead guitarist should be able to
write a great drum solo too, but often as not they can't.
Realizing your limitations is not only better for your work, but a humbling experience too.

Number six:
Remember the lyrics!
Great songs are made great by what is written above what is played. Sure some great songs exist without lyrics,
but for all of what will be remembered, the songs with great lyrics will be.
They don't even have to be that insightful to be great, just enough mystery and thought provoking can do it.
Stairway to heaven. Remembered for it's great guitar solo? Sure! and for it's great lyrics that most people can't remember.
Is it because they don't make sense? somewhat! But the genius behind where the lyrics take you on that song is the true marvel! is copyrighted © and may not be used without permission from the creator

Tuesday, June 8, 2010


Number one:
They like to hit things with sticks. When they can't beat their drums, they go after anything in the way, like your head!(when you are asleep :)

Number two:
They don't understand how hard it is to play a guitar. They think all we do is strum or pick at a note. They have no idea of all the complexities that are involved with fingering the fretboard while playing the note without distortion.

Number three:
They feel isolated! There are several different guitars in most bands along with keyboards, etc but usually only one drummer. Some bands have more than one though like the great Allman brothers used two drummers at one time.

Number four:
They think they are the make or break element of the band. In reality, they are but don't tell them that. True a great drummer can make a band, but a bad drummer can take a band down too. Problem is that once they know they are good, there is no taming them.

Number five:
Party, party, party, then show up late for rehearsals or recording sessions,
sometimes blowing off completely.
Damn those boys can party. Guitarists get drunk and find oak trees in their way but drummers can dodge anything! Must be that finger to hand dexterity.
endurance? debatable! Guitarists endure where it counts with the ladies.
(most chicks don't like that incessant tapping down their backs :))

Number six:
Read the music dude! No you don't just play it from your head! We went to all the trouble to write it, the least you can do is pretend to be reading it.

all and all in good fun! Gotta love your drummers! can't live with them and can't live without them. is copyrighted © and may not be used without permission from the creator

Tuesday, June 1, 2010


Look at you in the mirror. Who is that person feeling so secure.

Are you feeling the confidence in your new found love.

Or just waiting for the dust to wash it out from above.

Have you been living in the truth of what you so desperately seek.

or is it just another trick to leave you alone and weak.

What brings this aura of belief to make you so cool and high.

only then leaving you crying for the wolfs mercy obliged to deny.

Did you really think this one would be different than the rest.

Her truth calling to you in the night, standing above the best.

Laughing behind your back as you puff out your chest, the muse silently sneers.

Fools rush in before seeing the truth, brilliant men always wait for it to appear.

A man of few words will always win over one who recklessly spills his gut.

While taking love for granted will just leave you in a rut.

If you should accomplish what many have tried and failed

Just remember who awaits for you at the end of the trail.

Don't be too judgemental, humble or quick to make haste

or you know who may have to lay your soul to waste.

Strive to gallant in all endeavors however large or small.

Show mercy and remorse when you heed the call.

Listen to your heart when things go wrong.

Don't be told again to listen to the song. is copyrighted © and may not be used without permission from the creator

Tuesday, May 25, 2010


Relationships at best can be draining, consuming, comprimising, even disheatening.
At the sametime, though they can be incredibly uplifing, blissful, uncomprimising, insatiable, even spiritual.
What makes a great relationship have problems? It is fear mostly. With all of that giving, openess, love, physical energy, comes a great fear of crawling out on a limb and being left there by yourself. As relationships grow, so do expectations. We become closer by admiring and respecting each others beliefs, passions, desires, secrets, vulnerabilities. As the comfort level increases, unfortunately so does the fear factor. Will he or she remain true, will you be able to hold each others interests? Will all the trust you have establihed be crushed by another person, or be destroyed by them or yourself.
I for once, will hold on for dear life no matter which direction it may turn. I have come closer to everything I have ever wanted before than I have ever been in my life. Now I have heard that said before and I used to laugh to myself thinking yeah sure! It is like when people talk about their kids being so cute or whatever and you think Yeah sure! ho hum! It's not until you experience it for yourself that you realize how incredible it can be.

The vision we all want for ourselves is sometimes mistaken for everyone's elses' vision. What I mean by that is we judge the world, other people, family, those closest to our hearts by our own beliefs. We make the assumption that if we believe things a certain way, then surely the other people in our lives must also.
This is what we call reality, but is it? Is it possible for others in our lives to have the same vision, same reality? I would say close is possible but not every aspect. It probably should be that way too, otherwise we may as will clone ourselves and live with duplicity. Why are we so afraid of differences? Why do we strive to surround ourselves with people who think, act, work, eat, sleep just like we do?
Instead of reveling in diversity, we cling to our safe little world view of likeness.
Look at all of the matchmaking sites on the internet for instance. How do they operate? By matching you up with a version of yourself from the oposite sex.

I say if you want a lasting relationship, perhaps seek someone out who is very different from you, but one who your share the same view of the world. Remember things that attract you to someone in the beginning are the core foundation of who you may fall in love with, so don't have expectations that you will change them or that they will change you. If it isn't there from the beginning, your probably better off not pursuing it. Keep it fun. Laughter can cure a lot of woes and it just is so much more fun. Stick to your ideals. Comprimise when you can live with it. Love yourself first, for you can never love another unless you do. Don't plan everything. Be spontaneous, they love that. Have a solid plan always, but don't forget to have a back up plan as well. Strive for happiness. One of my favorites from a native american perspective is Live life as if today was your last day on earth. is copyrighted © and may not be used without permission from the creator

Monday, May 17, 2010


Baby I think I dreamscaped you last night.

after a blissful night of love and tenderness I took flight.

seeking you out into the vastness of eternal light.

A calling was abound who turned out to be a dark welcoming entitiy.

I could not run I could not hide no fear, no worry

Just a calling without remorse, without resolve I followed.

I turned to see where I had been and when I looked forward again, I was swallowed.

Again, no fear only wonder and an aching desire.

If I touch her darkness would I learn what gives her the fire?

She turned to me with a blissful glance, instantly leading me into a trance.

Following her further into the darkness, suddenly kissed by waves of bubbled water I take my stance.

All fear now a thing of the past, breathing her in harmony, surrenders completely into her arms.

What kind of place is this, I asked as it unfolds? This is not a place at all says she, this is the depths of your soul.

The depths of my soul, asks me? That's right, one would think you would recognize it's toil.

Herein is the place where every doubt, past fears, loves lost, hurt, deceit, betrayal are released.

In a frightening voice, bellows out "Release all that crap you carry now" for it can serve you no purpose now.

For it is time for us to move up to the next level, and we can no longer carry the past.

Our souls will merge together soon and we have to hurry if we want this love to last.

I look to her in wonder, are we ready for this everlasting love?

Before I can even see past her eyes, a flood of emotions washes over us and a lighted tunnel opens up.

We face each other and entwine our fingers, lips barely touching we vanish into the light. is copyrighted © and may not be used without permission from the creator.

Thursday, May 13, 2010


I want to talk about a hot topic where I live.
Arizona just passed one of the toughest immigration laws in history.
And it could not have come at a more horrible time than now. Our economy is in the toilet and we are dependent on business conventions and that kind of thing to survive the brutal summer months and so let's make everyone hate us even more for our laws and bigotry by passing two laws that will race profile Hispanics. I don't care what our hag governor says, the cops here will use race profiling to the max. They are already trigger happy and would rather shot you than listen to reason or if not that at least beat the crap out of you.
Oh and by the way when was the last time you heard of any real threat against this country coming out of Mexico? We all know the stories about how illegals come up here, have kids and milk the welfare system for all they can get. I have heard about these stories first hand and I know some of it goes on. How a veteran who fought in the war cannot make ends meet and cannot get any kind of assistance, yet an illegal can with having children born here, get $1500.00 or more per kid and never have to work or pay taxes. Is that the people they are going after? NO!! Of course not. They are already part of the system and they know where they live but they are not going after them. They want to go after the ones running across the borders and close off the borders. In the first place, have walls ever worked throughout history? Did they work in China? Berlin? anywhere? How about King Kong? nope, didn't work there either.
If the government really wanted to control the borders, all they need to do is legalize pot and regulate it. Then they would reap the profits and control the market thus shutting down most of the issues we have between Mexico and the U.S.
And to say its a party issue? Give me a break!! Neither party can claim to have come up with anything remotely useful in the last twenty years as far as immigration goes.
What about other portal cities that have much higher potential to let the Taliban or others in? Places like New York, Seattle, Miami? I'd say you have a much higher concern regarding terrorists in places like that then you have in Mexico. Maybe I'm not seeing the big picture here, and please enlighten me with some facts if your inclined but isn't all this really about fear. Keep everyone scared to death so your government can slowly strip you of every right this country was created for?
Beware of what you wish for. You just might get it and you will never even know what hit you...
She also passed a law to do away with special classes in Tucson aimed at Hispanics. In other words, some dickbrain legislator convinced her that these classes were anti-American and teach them to hate Americans. Do these idiots really think, they need to be taught that? Obviously anyone who is minority and has experienced profiling and racial injustice can contest to that. What mentality do these people exist in? Why are we going backwards in progress. What would we do if all diversity was wiped out and only whites existed? Who would we blame then? Then it would be the white blue collar middle class to blame for all the problems in the world. oh yes and in case you don't know the world could not exist without them... is copyrighted © and may not be used without permission from the creator

Monday, May 10, 2010


Did winter vacate our hearts without warning
The chilling touch that loomed before us now waning

Goddess of the sun, come shine down over me
push away winter blues make him flee

Did you see her through the trees
Was she soaring to you beneath the breeze

Mother of warmth sending you healing rays of light
glistening wisps of kisses touch you before the night

Feel the heat of the sun beneath your feet
uprising through your eternal heat

Her warmth from that personal space she reserves for you only
carries you into blissful warnings

With each pulsing pleasure ignites an internal fire
culminating in every inch of desire

never stop reaching for greater expectations
these things she gives can always bring you elation's

If this love should ever cease to exist
I would follow the angels into the mist is copyrighted © and may not be used without permission from the creator

Sunday, April 25, 2010


Would you meet me in paradise, just you and me?

A warm misty Island with blue green waters all around

A secluded cabin on the water where we could remain naked

Having only food and drinks delivered discreetly, a fresh towel here and there

The world around shut out, tuned out from media, phones, television, newspapers

Escape from obligations, appointments, work schedules, family demands

gazing into your pale green/blue eyes until our souls merge into one

kissing you sweetly, passionately, with complete abandon, living for desire

satisfying all our fantasies, desires, dreams, wantings

Seeing only you, moving in harmony and rhythm with you, anticipating every movement

Having our thoughts shared and understood without having to express them

How long could it last? This complete dedication and attention.

An eternity? A year? would you accept one to two weeks? I know I would gladly.

One life, love may come and go but life is a one shot experience.

Take the time to express your wants and desires and to play them out for your lover.

You never know if you will get another chance. is copyrighted © and may not be used without permission from the creator

Tuesday, April 20, 2010


Have you felt like your life has been a censorship lately.
Ever feel like you are being watched, monitored by your every move?
Everything from spy ware on your PC to the government tracking everything we do.
It can be as simple as a spouse or parent blocking access to certain Internet sites, or big brother keeping tabs on everything you say or do. Has your life been hacked?
I feel like I'm being watched and blocked at work with websense. They have forbid certain workers from even getting on the Internet except to check company emails, while other can do whatever they like. At home I have to watch where I go or what I may say on twitter because spy ware is always tracking me off of key words I may type.
Then there is the fear of those you live with watching what you do, who you talk to, that kind of thing. With so much fear and control at our fingertips, how can anyone feel truly free? Wasn't the Internet supposed to set us free? We have created more deceit,lies, mistrust, fear, control, abuse, ridicule, judgements, misjudgements, cheating, misrepresentation, false truths, hype, lust, trust, love, money schemes, falsified facts, crying, laughing, anger, and apathy.
No wonder we have no sense of reality.
We have become victims of our own circumstance. What a sad state of affairs we have reached.

On the other side, I cannot imagine how boring my life would be right now without the Internet. How so many people that I have met, laughed with, interacted with, would not exist. I would be stuck in my day to day never seeing a way out of the humdrum daily existence that is the reality of my life now.
Think about it! No blogging, no blipping songs, no twitter folks to interact with? Crap, I would have to go back to playing mindless video games and watching TV. Oh but what if they took away your TV, your radios, your newspapers, books, letters, transportation devices, all communications???
What or how could we survive? Can you imagine a world like that? All we would have are the incessant demons talking to us in our heads. ohhhh man that is a scary thought. The mind would want to go where minds should never go. is copyrighted © and may not be used without permission from the creator

Thursday, April 15, 2010


Today I thought I would talk about a band close to my heart.
The Shins! They are thought of as an Oregon band cause that's where they
are based out of but their orgins are in Albuquerque, New Mexico.
This is from "Wincing the Night Away"
Not all lyrics always fit what we feel about someone and this one has elements that do not fit, but it also makes you think and ponder the meaning deep between the lines. That is how great lyrics are supposed to be. If I could write songs like this, I could quit my day job.

Time to put the earphones on

Born to multiply, born to gaze into night skies,
All you want
But look here, until then
So keep your wick in the air and your feet in the fetters
To the day.
You come in doing cartwheels
We all go out by ourselves
And your shape on the dance floor
Will have me thinking such filth and gauge my eyes.

Faced with a dodo
Ah, I felt like I could just fly
But nothing

A dual tone under wall
Selfish fool and hoped you
Never dreamt of such sterile hands,
You keep them folded in your lap,
And raise them up to beg for scraps,
You know, he's holding you down,
With the tips of his fingers just the same,
You'll be pulled from the ocean,
But just a minute too late,
Or changed by a potion,
For you to love.

You'll be damned to pining through the windowpanes,
You know you'll change your life for any ordinary Joe,
And though your night will go on,
Your nightmares only need a year or two to unfold.

Been in love since you were twenty-one,
You haven't laughed since January,
You try and make this up this is so much fun,
But we know it to be quite contrary.

Dare to be one of us, girl,
Facing the Andrum's conundrum,
Ah, I feel like I should just cry,
But nothing happens every time I take one on the chin,
You don't know how long I've been,
Watching the lantern dim,
Starved of oxygen,
So give me your hand,
And let's jump out the window.

Lyrics used by permission of

Monday, April 12, 2010


It amazes lately how people's moods tend to fluctuate, especially my own.

It seems that in my case, it is directly related to my emotional bonds and whether I

get nourishment in my relationship. Is that true for everyone else? I would think

so, on varying levels. How easily we are either gratified or pushed to edge of

abandonment by how we interact with each other. Especially when your talking about

online relationships. It seems that the distance factor and limited time spent

together can really affect one's mood. I have spent countless hours pondering this

dilemma and frankly the more I ponder the worse it gets. Every lack of validation

adds up twofold to the already depleted absence of gratification of the physical.

Are we gluttons for punishment or is it just the circumstances of being in love

with someone whom you cannot be with presently? I have thought about this long before

and still have not come to terms with the outcome because there is no outcome only

possibilities. Hopes and dreams, knowing what I want but so much out of my hands adds

to the fears of losing someone you hold more precious than anyone you have ever

interacted with before. I'm not about to let her go and I think she knows that.

Even if the deep blue sea were to try to keep her away from me, I would find her loving arms.

A love so true that it can consume you in bliss is one that you can never miss. reaches out to your heart and soul.

absorbing you in layers of a warm mist, dragon's breath breathes in her snake breath, two serpents become entwined as one.

Disappears in flight, playfully becomes her delight, dances across the flame lit skies. forever bound by a harmonic sigh. is copyrighted © and may not be used without permission from the creator

Thursday, April 1, 2010


I read something today about trust in relationships that made me stop and think. I will be one to admit that I have had trust issues in relationships at one point or another. Being a victim of mistrust and abuse, it is not hard to see why I have issues but I have never explored the possibility that it might not be other people's actions that can set off the mistrust, that it might, in fact, be something within me that causes it to surface. So I would like to explore that idea a little. The article talked about how some men will try to read their significant other's diary, hack their emails and that kind of thing. While I have never tried to read any woman's diary nor have I ever hacked their emails, the reason that the article said they do this kind of hit me. It said that a man who feels the need to keep tabs or check-up on his significant other, may have secrets they themselves might want to hide. While not a new concept, not one I would tend to contemplate. I have always chalk it up to insecurities or feelings of not having control. The reality should be that we are not meant to have control of another and the fact that we are in a relationship should prove that there in nothing to be insecure about. So much of what we think goes on in an online relationship is conjecture. We have to make inferences about what we think is going on because we cannot witness or be savvy to the whole picture.
For instance, if you were to go to a party with your significant other and some guy comes on to her in an inappropriate way and you are there to see it, well then you can confront him and her about the nature of what happened. But in a online situation, you basically have nothing to go by unless there was a wide-range of witnesses or something like that. So I believe that trust has to be a major factor on both sides. Invading someones space to satisfy your own curiosity leads nowhere but to more mistrust. It slowly sinks in! To confront someone about something you have little or no idea what it is about just puts them on the defensive and accomplishes very little other than hurt feelings. Of course on the other end of the spectrum there are those who will take advantage of the fact that there is no accountability online and who feel anything goes. Well for those, I choose not to associate myself with those types online or in real life. I also try not to be judgemental about what people do either, it is after all fairly harmless as long as they are not hurting someone. I do not however tolerate abusive, disruptive or threatening behavior from anyone not do I allow it to be inflicted on anyone I like.
I have been threatened online, and I have been called on my actions and I can tell you it is not pleasant. In certain situations you cannot even defend yourself because the person you are trying to deal with has already placed you in their category of what they perceive you to represent to them. When conversation becomes so one-sided and takes on the persona of just being about them, there is nothing you can do but remain silent.
I hope that I can learn from the mistakes I've made and choose to become a better friend, lover, and observer. is copyrighted © and may not be used without permission from the creator

Wednesday, March 10, 2010


Brave new lovers taking a huge step. Meeting in person for the first time.

Feeling like they have known each other for a long time, love growing stronger.

Do they start over as strangers? The heart wants her to leap into his arms, while the mind says slow down you have been missing the physical astral plane all this time.

Like traversing over new terrain, completely unexpected territory. Will the emotional bond crossover to the physical? Will the intense love emotions so well conved through the fingers, transform exactly where they left off. All new, all unknown.

We will take things slow, even though we have only one day and one night together.
How do you convey all the surpressed emotions that have been unable to surface into one night? is copyrighted © and may not be used without permission from the creator

Saturday, March 6, 2010

Love is like a vulnerable roller coaster baby

Hold on tight lover let me take you higher

Don't let me go there alone only leave us drowning so forlorn

You know we can soar so high like the Banshees flourish in the navies flight

Flying with you has given me such delight

Looking to the future with you excites me so much Navigating through the obstacles thrown in our path

The challenges of strength that we have to rise above to prove our love to Gods above

A demon along every bump in the path, Navi help me find the clearing that will lead to the forest cliff

Circle with me love, our Navies know the way to safety remembering why we came in the first place

They never have to worry about the past, living in the love of the now will lead the way

Your gift of love will never be oppressed nor forgotten the beauty of your openness fills my heart beyond passion

How could I not love one so bold and beautiful follow you into the light of bliss and devotion

A Heart so strong yet so fragile will I protect with all my soul and emotion

lover be with me now and forever a love unyielding, unencumbered limits

set by our own fears and haunting past breaks free at last to reveal

Nothing or anybody can stand in our way now out demons out out demons out

Take my hand love and as we become one we conquer

Why I would sacrifice anything, everything for you

You rescued me baby you saved me from myself and my deepest darkness

You gave me hope back you brought me out from the darkness lighted the path

and the fact that you came to me in a time when i was not looking for love and still shinned so bright

well that just blows me away... and so I put into you my heart as one my soul as yours

Lets run the kidnappers run as we should abandon now into the future

These are things that allow me to love you...

Tuesday, March 2, 2010


So much talk about doors opening and closing. We all know the expression well, but just what is this metaphor?

Why do we use it so much to measure our emotions? What did they use before doors were invented?

I have always depended on the notion that everything happens for a reason, that things take place beyond our control.

While that is a noble, even religious way to look at events in our life, it also is a huge cop-out. For if everything is happens because of some divine intervention, that frees us from having to be responsible for our actions.

Just what does it mean to be responsible for our actions? More and more in this world, we see people not accepting responsibility for their actions. From our leaders, representatives, bosses, spouses, our children, all have thrown responsibility out the window.

We all want to take the path of least resistance. The one that lets us off the hook, out of the dog house, whatever you want to call it. Would taking the path of responsibility not be the better path to learning and making us the better person?

Aye, but what does it mean to be a better person? One who has achieved enlightenment? One who owns his actions, whatever the consequences? One who will sacrifice his own needs for the good of others? Give something up so that someone else can go on?

Back to noble causes. Why do people sacrifice for the sake of others? Is that for the good of the psychic mind or the proverbial pat on the back? again this just pacifies the ego, or is it truly for the sake of the recipient? And are these recipients deserving of the deed?

What is the deed? I know it has close ties with religion and Jesus trying to show man a philosophy of life that was lacking empathy. A way to really get inside another souls condition. Understanding, compassion all good for the healing of the soul.

What is Healing? Easy to understand on a physical plane. One gets sick, you either take something or do some action or sacrifice to recover. Easy! What is emotional healing? Allowing the mind to find balance, harmony, restoration, purging of fears, demons, unbalance.

What is unbalance? That which is not in harmony, sync, alignment with pure and impure. This is perhaps the hardest to deal with because of having to look at both sides, taking the good with the bad and so forth. The realization that we cannot achieve things for the all goodness. We have to experience dark to understand light. We have to hurt to understand well being. We have to lose in order to gain, take in order to give, live in fear in order to live in peace.

What is peace? Something we all strive for. Seems to tie into all of these things and then going beyond to find an inner glow so bright and inviting that to not go to it would be like giving up life in itself. Peace is transient in it's beauty. Never intended to last but never outlasted either. Peace out!

What is peace out? Stop saying that and think about it. is copyrighted © and may not be used without permission from the creator.

Thursday, February 25, 2010


Is online love real?
I have wrestled with this notion for sometime. Those of you who read my posts
know this is a repeating theme. Past interactions have always left me with a conflicted response to this question.
Now that I have met someone completely different, who is of my same mind-set, do I dare to trust my feelings? Having been burned so often in the past, is it not fair to want to keep those emotions under lock and key?
Is it even wise to discuss these now, when it could jeopardize the relationship?
Is it even the right time to ponder these emotions?
so many questions and feelings and very little answers.
Trust is such a bitch to deal with. One that does not come easily to this fool when dealing with love. I guess it is the price we all pay when we put our feelings on the line. We all must take the risk, suck up and move forward hoping we don't crash and burn.
In the cyber world, so much is unknown that it makes it easy to prey upon or become victim to false hopes. Even in dealing with a real physical person, it is never easy. I'm not saying that an online person isn't real, for I know there are many who are, but there are also many who are there just to play the game and hide behind some false persona. These are the ones who you have to watch out for. They can be hacks, in disguise or just fucked up peeps who, for whatever reason, can't be true to themselves or others. I have said it before, but will again, that I do not play these kind of games and what I put out there is the real deal, for good or bad, take or leave. My emotions are pretty much worn on my sleeves. Just because I love to role play, doesn't mean I like to live an alter-ego. Even my characters in role play represent me on some level and that always comes through. Those close to me know this and make it easy to be open and honest.
Who said in life there are not guarantees?
Who said no careful amount of planning can take the place of pure dumb luck?
Who said doing a good job was like wetting your pants in a dark suit, it gives you a warm feeling but nobody notices?
Who said children should be seen and not heard?
Who said love is a rose but you better not pick it, only grows on the vine. Hand full of thorns and you know you missed it. you lose your love when you say the word mine~ think that was Neil Young. is copyrighted © and may not be used without permission from the creator.

Tuesday, February 23, 2010


Now I know what you are thinking. I already got a tweet from a friend asking: "Who is the lucky chick?!" In fact, I'm the lucky guy! I love to rp and I'm quite good at it. Creating a world and character from nothing is quite challenging and you can use your imagination like no other format I know of. She is quite brilliant too at using hers so I'm sure I have met my match. If things go as planned, and we create a utopia worth writing about, I may post some of them here. We will be starting out as medieval characters. An area of some expertise for me as I have been playing one for over eleven years now. I'm sure we will be bringing in Dragons and serpents and who knows what else. Anyone else like to rp out there. We could create a new web-based realm. I used to run a few of those on MSN back in the day. Perhaps create a trending topic on twitter although I don't know how trending it would be but a lot of fun! Please send ideas, comments, suggestions as always appreciated.
Peace out!

Saturday, February 20, 2010


The world was a better place for you and me

we said we would make our dreams come true someday

Time consumed realizations that dreams could never be

Did we change directions or just go separate ways

The path of love has grown routine, hearts devoured

Desire replaced by greed, wanting replaced by necessity

Love shouldn't be all about you your wants desires your incessant rantings

The me generation is not conducing to love nor about getting what you want

Love is not meant for those with no experience It should come with a warning label

May be hazardous to your health use discretion use sparingly apply only to affected areas

If a rash develops discontinue use consult your physician

No doctor healer energy worker can fix only facilitate the process open the path which you alone must take

Alone conflict of love for love begins with the self perhaps completes the circle

Straight lines go on for eternity as circles imply a beginning and an end repeating process

Paths cross paths lead away love strikes without warning but always with intent so strong and enduring

Transient toying with emotion trust beauty sins lust passion desire fulfillment

Like a drug sins created by the church control obey follow the crowd give and take

Take take get what you want get what you need feed your need need your dream

Was it an illusion? is copyrighted © and may not be used without permission from the creator

Thursday, February 18, 2010


Yesterday was Ash Wednesday. Some friends I know went to the hospital chapel and got ashes! One of them was chased down a hall by a manager trying to tell them that they had something on their face. Another younger co worker walked into the break room where an older co worker looked at him and asked "Do you belong to a cult?"
It takes all kinds, doesn't it? While the tradition probably has been around for centuries, it is still something we don't see a lot of these days. I admit I'm not the most religious person around, in fact, far from it but I was baptized Catholic.
My dad became furious with the Catholic church after the priest was asking everyone to basically give up everything in sacrifice so that they could give to the church. I don't understand that kind of mentality and neither did my dad. We tend to belong to the Charity of self preservation which I think is more in line with the world. That doesn't mean I never give to charity. I do when I can and when I want to. If movie theatres operated the way churches do would they stay in business long? Passing a hat at the exits for the show? Could they possibly function that way? I think not. Most would leave before the credits came and skip out. So why do non-profit charities and churches operate in this manner? I really would like to know, because I haven't a clue. It would make for an interesting world I know that. You go to a restaurant and have a great meal but the waitress sucked at the end and didn't give you your last drink or something, so by today's standards you just would adjust your tip, but by the hat method what would you do? cheat the chief and others who did well by not paying as much or not at all. Oh and the envelope idea? hm mm let's really conceal how much your going to cheat them by not showing how much your supposedly giving. I'm beginning to re-think this concept. You need gas for your car but you have no cash, so you pull in and fill up and ask for an envelope where upon you place a note in saying you'll put twice as much in on the next fill-up!
The possibilities are endless.
I went to a Joel Osteen sermon a while back. Now my sister paid for the tickets and I have to admit it was quite an inspirational show, but I wasn't expecting them to pass the hat around after everyone supposedly had bought tickets for it but sure enough they did. We chose not to put in.
I saw a jar at a Chinese restaurant check out counter that read: "Tipping is not in China" I had to laugh. I never know if we are supposed to tip on take-out? I always do because they still have to prepare everything and get it all packaged up. I just don't tip as much. I always equate giving at the church with tipping. Is this wrong?
Peace out. is copyrighted © and may not be used without permission from the creator

Thursday, February 11, 2010


I have always thought that I did not fit into the path most people take. My father was a loner and I grew up, for the most part alone. I had very few friends in school and in my Canyon hood, hardly anyone my age. I used to talk to make-believe playmates and occasionally would be caught speaking to no one as people walked by my house. I would get those blank, the kid must be crazy looks from people as they passed by. I moved to the beat of a different drum. I discovered a lot about myself from those experiences, but mostly I learned a tremendous amount about people by just sitting in on my parents conversations with their friends. I was, quite lucky, to be able to hang out with folks much older and wiser than me. Today's kids don't seem to get that experience. That makes me a little sad that as a race we have evolved into a individualistic mentality. The one thing I hated as a kid, not having any friends, has become a way of life for many children now. I at least had my sisters, their friends, my parents friends and so forth. Now kids get lost in mindless video games and TV. I had some crazy freaks in my hood. I grew up in Laurel Canyon in Hollywood during the heyday of the peace movement. The long haired hippie freaks they used to call us. I had navy bell bottoms with paisley patches on the ass and along the bottom seams. I wore a three inch belt which my mom had to make custom belt loops to wear it. I also had had puffy sleeved pirate shirts which my sister made for me of bright colored paisley patterns. I frequently wore old Army denim jackets with flowers embroidered on the back or peace signs. I had hip boots with inward zippers to the knee. I owned a Fred Segal fringe cowhide jacket which I wore so much it had molded into the shape of my skinny body. I would sneak wearing peace beads to school, until busted once by my mother who freaked out. She was convinced that once I started wearing beads it meant for sure that I was on drugs. Funny thing is, she was right! My dad with his military background was surprisingly pretty cool and was fine with my ensemble as long as I didn't bring chicks to the house around my younger brother. Oh and we all wore the mirror coated sunglasses to cover up the red eye.
In high school I hooked up with these two lesbian hippie chicks who taught me how to open up and be myself. We were taking Ceramics class together and the teacher was probably a stoner himself. We were getting high before class in those days and would only have to look at the teacher and know that he knew we were high. One day the two girls were giggling and saying something to draw me out when he walked by and said something about "now do you see what the Wobby spirit has done to you" I had no clue what the "wobby spirit" was until the realization at the end of the semester that he did, in fact, get high and was messing with my head. Oh and he also, later, wanted to date my sister. He also would say things like "the slave allows the clay to control him, while the master makes a slave out of the clay" Simple shit like that but profound philosophy for life just the same. Just like if I was out washing my Colby Mustang fastback in my hood and some hippie would walk by, look at me and say "you know you get it on, you get it off, it's all the same" and keep walking.
Life seemed so simple then. There were hippies who would just talk to me for hours about anything. for instance, one felt the government should subsidize him to make candles for everyone. Many of them believed in communism in the true sense of it. Socialism? whatever you want to call it. For the people, by the people comes from that. There were the draft dodgers. Yes we had a draft then and everyone feared being drafted and having to go to Vietnam to really get your head fucked with. I knew many guys who were permanently messed up from going there. I was too young to go but had very conflicted feelings about it. It was a time of protesting our government policies and there was a sense of something really big about to happen, a revolution as it were. What happened to that? My take is that after Nixon had the students shot at Kent state university just for war protesting that everything started to change. The realization that our leaders could and would do something that horrific, left many scrambling for cover. We were still reeling from the assassination of John Kennedy, Martin Luther King, and later, of course, Bobbie. I was a kid but it still has a strong effect in my memory. The death of Camelot as they called it. People say the whole Watergate incident did not bother them, but really I see it as a shift of the way we slowly began to give up all our freedoms and rights as a nation. And what it has spiraled into now, has left many of us feeling just hopeless.
I really don't think it matters anymore which party is in office, that our country is not run by a president or a party system, but by an elite group of a very rich power hungry conglomerate that now controls the world. We sold our rights, our country, our dreams everything this country stood for out to them with our fear of the almighty Terrorist mentality. That is exactly what they wanted all along and they perpetrated the whole 911 catastrophe just to get it.
The only way we will ever get our freedom and rights back my friends is my another revolution. Ironically the hippies were right!

Sunday, January 31, 2010


A force of unknown origin sweeps you back to self realization.

Was this a dream, a wanting so pure to be real. Somehow jumped off at the wrong station.

Landed in a dreamlike surreal world where wanting is the order of the day

Head in the clouds, strikes up the band as they repeat over and over stay stay stay.

floats down into a field of flowers, visions of poppy seeds dancing in his way.

Surrendering to the intoxicating pollen, falls deep into a dreamlike fog.

Stumbling through stony grounds remembered. wishing only how to get back home he becomes lost.

Spirals deeper into submission. Clinging to the clutter of his ambitions.

Golden light to the rescue blinding him, healing streams penetrate his body and soul.

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Saturday, January 30, 2010


Moving towards the light. Helping find the way.

Begins the new day. Hoping it will be bright.

Baby on my mind. Her glowing energy so fine.

Smiles all around as she turns heads in all directions.

She moves in almost pristine perfection.

Who could not love her. She stimulates the senses.

Makes me think of all my sins, while reminding me of all my wins.

She glances my way with a grin.

Bathes in golden glowing light!

Bathes in golden glowing light!

Kisses her with delight!

Kisses you with blissful light!

Whispers sweet love in a covert way. Knowing she loves to play.

Follow her to the ends of the earth.

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Thursday, January 28, 2010


Another Birthday tomorrow! Oh boy! Can't wait! For some reason I always get a deep depression right before my birthday. I don't understand the dynamics behind it either. I don't care that much about getting older although i try not to think about it. I'm healthy and feel a lot younger than I 'am, so I really don't understand it. I end up taking it out on people I love and care about, innocent peeps, you name it. The feeling continues to fester and grow in me until after its over, then things tend to slowly go back to normal. I wanted to explore this a little to see if this happens to others. I know it does and is fairly common but do others not understand why like I do? It also seems to get worse every year, which by now you'd think I would have figured out a way to deal with it. I can't trace it back to anytime when something bad may have happened. It must be something deeply buried inside me. So the best thing for me to do around my birthday is to go into retreat. The problem with that is that birthdays aren't just for the one who's having them, it really more for everyone around you. So to hide is not always an option. Maybe the attention to it makes me uncomfortable, but that shouldn't lead to a depression. I have that song "manic depression" going through my head over and over. "I know what I want but I just don't know how to go about getting it"
As I'm being constantly reminded, it is not all about me though, so I need to snap out of it and get past it. How to do that? hmmm maybe a birthday stripper might help. Yeah bring on the dancing girls! Couldn't hurt! Maybe a comedy club? Hell maybe I should go skydiving for the first time. If I can't figure it out while scared shitless and falling to the earth, then I never will. Of course others, friends, family who know me well, will tell me I'm still full of shit and to get over myself. That is always good advice but doesn't really help. I really just need to disappear from everything and everybody for a week. If Only! I miss my mother at times like these. She always had a smile and some good cheer to bring me back. What a generous gifted being she was. Never afraid to speak to anyone and never a bad word for anyone. How I got all my negativity, well I know i got it from my father cause I wanted to be just like him and funny, be careful what you wish for chimes true. Well at least I get to postpone my party for another week due to Superbowl being in Feb. Then the game takes precedence over my b-day :)
How do you make up with the ones you hurt? With the deadly pride always in the way, I always remember that stupid line form Urban cowboy when the uncle talks about having a gullet big enough to let the old pride swallow :)
I know the opinion of one will be whoa is me stop feeling sorry for youself so I got it out and feel a little better :)

Sunday, January 24, 2010


Since I have become a DJ on, I have been slowly picking up new DJ listeners from around the world. It has helped me broaden my horizons with my musical tastes.There are so many great bands now from around the world, that one does not have to be locked in to just listening to the same old standbys. I have always had a broad range of musical taste, so now it is even more diverse. The follow or listen concept puzzles me though. It seems you can gain and lose listeners at a moments notice depending on the type of music you blip. I understand that some people add you because they like similar types of music. I have a hard time understanding why they can drop you just as fast if you play something they don't like or doesn't fall into their category or genre. What is wrong with some diversity? As Ricky Nelson said once after getting booed for not playing his old hits: "If all I can play is memories, I would rather drive a truck." (Garden Party)
There is some great music to discover out there and not just from blip. XM/Sirius has some great stations also. I absolutely love deep tracks. I get to hear some new and old versions of some of my favorites as well as many tunes I've never discovered.
If only I had more time to spend discovering all this new music.
Seems that constantly being drawn into all this social media that absorbs most of my time has left me having to abandon other things in my life, like writing, playing guitar, playing games, socializing, watching movies, reading, and the list goes on.......
I suppose if it makes me happy, then it can't all be bad, right?
If I had never got sucked into twitter and the like, I would be functioning in real life mode, but missing out on great opportunities to expand my spiritual, mental, interacting capabilities.
So moving forward, no regrets for all the great experiences and fantastic people I've met.
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Friday, January 15, 2010


This morning I did a good morning blip offering coffee. Next thing I know I'm getting coffee requests for everyone like at Starbucks, Lol with one request from a sweet woman for tea with lemon. It was such fun!
Now I have lost a few friends on twitter who think I abandoned them, but I really don't see how or why? BlipFM, for those who are not familiar with it is a DJ blip music site that very much operates just like twitter except that you post music along with or without your comments. You can still reply, re tweet = re-blip etc. I'd have to say the dj's are a fun group of diverse backgrounds and tastes, just like twitter. So why do some folks get put off by it? Don't know or really care because music has always been top priority in my life. I still answer people when they reply to me on twitter. I was never one to post incessantly anyway just to see my name up there.
The flirtation on blip runs rampant and it is quite easy to get sucked into that. I actually enjoy it a lot and think it is quite healthy, but it can sometimes lead to problems with miscommunication and all that can go along with that. The same thing goes holds true for twitter from what I've seen. Once you weed out all the peeps who want to sell you something, get something from you, have you follow them for some big ego trip program designed to get you thousands of followers or get you "white Teeth."
Then there are the Porn spams, which has diminished considerably for me. I used to get a kick out of them until they got out of control and I was told to block and report.
Then there is the follow Friday and all the trending topics. I thought the #Followfriday thing would go away with the creation of the lists but it didn't. I don't even really understand the concept of the lists, as to me, it is just another popularity concept. Although my friend Lori explained it best in her blog that it is a convenient way to organize peeps that fit into a certain category.
I tend to think of peeps as having layers of categories they fit in so I have been unable to grasp the concept.
As far as etiquette goes, that seems to be based on how each person defines their behavior. My friend Gayle, did an excellent job of describing this topic and even provided guidelines and tools to use or follow. I tend to fly by the seat of my pants with such things and hence get myself in trouble sometimes or at least misunderstood. Bottom line is (you guys know I'm a bottom line kind of guy) don't take anyone too serious and especially yourself.
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